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Thanks semua…for evrythng…utk kasi kuat me… urmmmmm… Got this from my fren’s Blog… me crying again….thank u Bibis……i will b fine… mcana pun me harus sedar n tahu y Dolly tdk akan kembali lagi……………………………

A close friend of mine lost her cat named Dolly; last Sunday. Dolly WAS her most loyal companion for the past 10 years. Penumpang setia each time she went back to her hometown. She had Dolly when she was studying in UiTM KB. And when she finished her study, she flied Dolly all the way from KB to KK. Threat her Daddy that she won’t get back if Dolly’s not allowed to balik with her. So the father pun buatla whatever it takes just to make sure the 4 *there were 2 more other cats* of them arrive KK bersama2. After 10 years of TLC between them…3 months suffering from different kind of diseases…1 week of dialysis…she eventually past away peacefully *while asleep, ok peeps* last Sunday morning. Dolly’s remained was brought back to my friend’s hometown & was buried there. My friend is still grieving & I never saw her being this sad. Not even during her divorce with her ex-husband. We cried together when she broke the news to me yesterday morning. I just couldn’t hold myself from crying. Dolly was such a dear ‘friend’ to her. The bond between them was very much indefinable. Dolly also was 1 of my mangsa buli & that’s why I kind of know how she feels, too. The feeling of losing ‘someone’ one dearly love is something that one can’t express in words. It’s something unendurable..indeed. And we cried again at the office when I was about to go home. She told me that it’s just too hard for her to accept that Dolly has gone, FOREVER. Leaving her alone at the house. She couldn’t bear seeing the place where Dolly used to play hide & seek with her…the place where she fed her…where she slept…where she pupu…every inches of the house remind her of Dolly. I feel sorry for her…really am sorry.

20th July 2008 - Sunday

Me bangun awal..at 6.00am & trus cheak Dolly y tidur sebelah me…she’s sleep..sgt comel cantik cute…& i told her " Dolly tgari nnti p klinik lg k "… No respon frm her..me tau jugak Dolly tdk larat… then me usap kepala n kiss her…  & me baring lg sebelah her..nda sedar me tetidur..smpai dgr suara Nonoi " B, dolly tiada suda ka ni??" …dat tym Tuhan saja y tau mcmana me..me terus bangun n cheak Dolly lagi……………dan Dolly bukan tidur lagi….She’s Gone…Dolly betul2 suda tiada………. me tdk tau mcmana mau ckp apa y me rasa masa tu, wlu me suda ajar diri utk get ready …tapi its hardddd…too hard for me to accept y Dolly betul2 suda tiada………..Nonoi & Ella dlm menangis pun cuba kasi tenang me….

Me cuba kuat kan diri hati…demi Dolly…befikir mana mau simpan Dolly… Mamy Call, kasi tenang me jugak, suru me sabar….jgn telampau ikut hati……yaaaaaaa me cubaaaaa..me sedang mencubaaaaaaaa smpai skrg pun..me sedang mncuba utk terima y Dolly suda tiada….& last me decide utk kubur her tmpat mamy n suru nonoi & ella besiap utk balik KM…wlupun me suda tau Dolly tiada…wlupun me suda decide utk kubur dia tp deep in me, masi brharap miracle trjadi..Dolly bangun lagi…i still cannot believe y Dolly betul2 tggl kan me…..sampaila bila me angkat Dolly utk masuk kereta………badan Dolly suda mula keras…& again me tdk ble kawal diri………
OTW to mom’s hse..tym me driving…me never stop crying..same as Nonoi & Ella….it was really sad journey…. tiada lg Dolly y bising mau tgk kereta2 tym me driving..tiada lgi Dolly y kacau me masa me driving………..semua memory wit Dolly dtg terus menerus masa me drive……its hurt me so bad…….

Sampai rumah Mom….bila dad bgtau kubur Dolly suda ready…..me angkat her again…. kiss her again n again, me cuba tdk nngis…me bawa her body turun from hse..me cuba kasi tenang diri sendiri….mamy, nonoi, ella, dad & anak buah ikut me…. & bila mamy ckp " kasi masuk la Dolly "……uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i feel like dyinggggggggggggg…….its too hard for me to let her go….. & again me tdk dpt kawal diri…me peluk cium dolly sepuasnya …me tdk sedar apa jadi keliling me but dat tym me suda terduduk d tanah dkat kubur dolly…. me cuma dgr mamy, ela, nonoi nngis & cuba kasi tenang me….. dannnnn dlm terpaksa…me kasi masuk dolly ….she still comel dat tym…me balut Dolly dlm kain….n kasi masuk dia ……sangat sakit, terlalu sakit rasanya masa tu……..dan me tabur tanah atas her…. i will misss u Dolly…will always love u….

… My bf call, but me tdk dpt bckp tym tu..then me tutup… but u, thanks for being so understanding.. dari mula Dolly sakit he tdk pernah bosan dgr me nngis…. he sms me " sayang, pls dun b sad, im really bad at this, i cannot stand hearing u cry sayang… promise me that u’ll b fine… tapi apa pun, wlu mungkin ramai y fham tp mmg tdk akan dpt faham mcmana Dolly really mean to me..mcmana me syg Dolly…for 10yrs..am wit her…kalau b4, org ckp howla if Dolly tiada & me jwb " Dolly will never leave me" ….. sepatutnya me ready dari awal semua ni akan terjadi…..

me cuba tdk menangis lg….me tahan sekuat mungkin…tapi bila smpai at me house….masuk rumah there’s no Dolly waiting depan pintu anymore..bila masuk bilik n nmpak bekas minuman n makanan Dolly…erkkkkkk me tdk dpt tahan….there’s no more Dolly utk me pggl naik katil n momom…thre’s no more dolly y ikut2 me mana me jln…there’s no more Dolly y tdur dgn me..there’s no more Dolly y me ble pegang peluk cium…there’s no more dolly kasi bgun me pagi…there’s no more Dolly for me……..

i miss my Dolly very much……….so much……… Dolly sayang, Dolly will always in my heart forever…. Dolly will always b my comel forever….. i love u Dolly…………

Dear Lissa,

A little bit of solo time probably sounds good to you right now, doesn’t it? It makes sense, after all the time and energy you have been giving to other people lately. A little bit of rest and relaxation will not only revitalize your heart and your soul, but it will remind those around you that you cannot be taken for granted. You are there to help — not there to be used. Treat yourself well and get all the beauty sleep you feel you need right now.

Never Say " I Love U " if u Really Dont Care ….

Never Talk About feelings if they aren’t Really There ….

Never give Me Hope if all u do is Lie …..

Never say u’r goin too if u’r not Really plan to Start ….

Never say Never …. it makes me cry …..cry n cry …..

MAYBE AM JUST STUPID! YAAAAAAA I AM STUPID!!!

           —–>    I CAN ONLY IMAGINE ..FATHER & SON…   <—-

Got dis video from Elaine…awal2 pagi lagi sa nangis ni.. i dunno u all but for me ni la clip video y paling hebat sa pernah nampak…how i wish boleh dpt lelaki y mcm tu…the father…uhh sa mau nangis lagi……..

27th - Mamai @ Zoe

28th - PS @ Ritut

29th - Kupi @ Josie

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Kemarin after work kami bejumpa-jumpaan setelah sekian lama nda nampak wajah masing2…we celebrate birthday "MAMAI,PS&KUPI" serentak sono pizza hut…

y datang..of coz MAMAI,PS,KUPI…me,daling,jason,tom,jerry,kiloy,jane,clarice,tompok,sumpit,eskrim,nel & chips…

ni pic2 semlm……….

uhhh sa paning…….

saturday nite..its ladies nite again ~~ jugs ~~

mula2 weird sikit kamiurg (me,daling,kiloy,ps & mei2)..ada yang menguap hahahaha abis suma lama suda inda ke bendang & beraksi.. kami kumplin2 n kasi katawa urg jak…. terutama pergerakan si pengangi pompuan tu band baru d jugs…betul2 weird …but tiba2 ada show " budak puti + budak cina " pa lgi toriak2 la suda ..karual la setan2 y lama takurung… ermmm gindut pun ada wit collegue2 da…tambah la lagi huhahuha…be twist kunun soma…

wat i can say bout the new band..nda la best brabis…durang punya expresion muka mcm mau nokosirit ni kalu high pitch hahha..bagusnya ku mengutuk..tp y buat kami jatuh cinta bila tu 2nd lead singer nyanyi lagu " i dun love u by MCR" which is my lil sista’s favorite song ..huh jatuh cinta ni sora da….punya best…c daling y susah mau jatuh cinta pun trus terjatuh cinta brabis…itula lagi y bikin hangat dat nite…y last pun da ngangi juga tu lagu balik…waduh sampai p jantung ni…trus lupa wajah da y temiring2 mau ngangi tu lagu..apa2 pun he’s good!!! love it!!! very much…uhhhh wish dpt dgr lagi da ngangi dis saturday….( hint for da gals!!) hahahaha…

nway..dis is for u my daling…..dgr la ko barbis k………

…ups lupa mau mention…ada pula 2 teruna join kamiurg y tengah2 mlm da…c romeo & jeff….i dunno if they have fun or not..but for me.. YA!! ..its gud sumtimes…talking..laughing n being silly wit da ladies ..gurls nite out i mean… ok..till then…

dis is for ya’ daling ku……

I DONT LOVE U - MCR !!! !

Well, when you go,
Don’t ever think I’ll make you try to stay,
And maybe when you get back,
I’ll be off to find another way.

When you go,
Would you even turn to say,
"I don’t love you like I did yesterday"?

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading,
So sick and tired of all the needless beating,
But, baby, when they knock you down and out,
It’s where you oughta stay.

I don’t love you like I loved you yesterday.

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   ok me ada bahan suda mau update blog kenens..erm my anak buah epal akhirnya setuju juga after me n her mum paksa her ikut tu model search..bukan mau apa tp mau kasi paham her..mau kasi sedar her yang she is pretty..tp dia sentiasa tidak yakin..tidak tau dgn kelebihan y dia ada tp balik2 me & her mum paksa sampai marah hahaha baru da mau ikut pa lagi bila MR.Ben pigi tambah2 suruh da jadi model lagilah dia kuat sikit semangat..ok ni pic2 c anak perempuan c neneng

Miss Elaine….

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