Archive for December, 2005
mY FaVoRiTe SoNg
Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
Me sedih…
Tuesday, December 13th, 2005Emmm am sick leave yesterday..tidak berapa sihat…. I don’t know why..semakin me cuba lupakan him semakin kuat rasa sayang me pada him..and sejak kebelakangan ni,me selalu termimpi dia…me mimpi dia sakit and dlm my mimpi pun dia reject me..SOooooo sad.. :-(…..Kadang2 bangun dari tidur me betul2 rupanya menangis…. Me sudah cuba sedaya upaya untuk tidak ingat dia lagi but walaumcmana pun me happy..keluar dgn kawan2..bila sampai rumah me still miss him..rasa kosong sangat..sunyi sangat…me tambah BENGONG bila dapat sms from his wife..mula2 tu she tanya khabar & cerita2 kosong but last2 dia ckp "Ever come across your mind that he might have someone new??i don’t mean to upset you but these things might happen..u know men are not angels…" erkkkkkkkk memang lain jugalah me rasa lepas dpt sms mcm tu dari dia but me pura2 tiada rasa apa2…me just ckp kalau betul lah he ada org lain..me just doakan him happy…tapi she mcm mau me benci him..mcm2 lagilah she ckp…tapi bila dia mcm2 suda me ubah topic..me tanya dia kenapa tidak boleh u bagi peluang untuk him..kamu dua suda ada everything..rumah..kereta..kerja y baik..anak2..and me sure kalau u bagi dia chance,dia akan berubah lagi pun he said he suda serik..then she jawab me..I don’t believe bila dia ckp serik…I know him more than u do….he can give the house to his new bride or children..that won’t be a problem..u dunno the story behind it….kenapa dia ckp mcm tu dgn me ah?????i know my bunny…dia tidak akan bohong me…dia suda bagitau everything to me…ini semua terjadi pun disebabkan perangai me sendiri…and he buat mcm ni pun semata2 mau me happy and tidak mau me sedih lagi…..apa pun just wish him happy…….i miss him very much…………
for 18XXX……
Sunday, December 11th, 2005Funny Story….hehehehehe..
Sunday, December 11th, 2005Tijah ingin memutuskan perhubungan dengan boyfriend MAT SALLEH nya.... Dia tak sanggup bertemu muka, Lalu dia pun mengutus surat... surat tu macam ni bunyinya....hehehehe: Hi, my motive write this letter is to give know you something. I WANTTO CUT CONNECTION US. I have think about this very cook. I know i clapone hand only. Correctly, i have see you and she together at town withmy eyes self. you always request apology back back. I don't trust youagain!!! My Friend speak you play three wood. New i know you correct correctplay three wood. so, i break off to pull my body from this lovetriangle.I know this result i pick is very correct, because you loveshe very high from me. so, i break off to go far from here. But ialways love where also i live....Safe live......
TiNgAu
Thursday, December 8th, 2005NgaRuT-NgArut
Thursday, December 8th, 2005Kesian me tidak dpt join durang olumis p tgk movie..isk isk isk…tapi ta pa..saturday me still can go ma… tapi last nite mmg budsss lah kejadian..adakah patut my kazen bawa mam dia p rumah time2 sa mo kluar..mau halau pun kesian tapi mau layan pun utak sa lain2..balik2 sms lumis.. actually, Ayo (Aira daughter cum my dancing sifu)told me last nite ada ladies nite d bluenot…& mau celebrate birthday party for KED (singer sono blueknot)excitednya sa mau pg..walaupun sa mengantuk pasal semlm jam 3 lebih baru sampai rumah abis sesat lepas antar lumis pulang from cempaka (ramai jugak kami d cempaka..ada olumis,hazel,jasonjay,gidong,jerry,tom,kupi&ojoi) tapi sa really wanna go to blunot ba last nite…miss betul mau jumpa kawan2 sana…tapi apa buli buat inda dpt pg…mau dekat jam 12.30 suda baru kazen sa pulang…durang lumis pun masi d BED..cam teda harapan lah..trus sia tidur lah..skali jam 2 si BJ called…dlm separuh sedar sa dengar dia punya sora "wui napa ko inda datang ah???"….tapi sa inda tau apa sa jwb…apa2 pun begitulah kehidupan semlm..hopefully tonite ada kejadian yang bestlah…..end~~~~~~
ThE MeNgArUt Me
Monday, December 5th, 2005Eemmm..Actually me baru try test cuba masuk ni friendster ni..last nite my friend "Hazel@Bebeh" called me..dia yang brabis suruh join ni…ramai kawan tau dia lang….ko misti masuk..rugi tau….lebih kurang begitulah dia ckp..jadi sa try lah kunun2 ni..manalah tau pas2 ni sa buli jadi artis…..
kalau ikut betul…sebelum me jumpa ni kawan2 baru ni,hidup me buduh betul..boring tahap naga bunting ni….tiada la kejadian yang indah bah..baru tue last2 month betul2 streesssfullll month for me..kana kasi tinggallah ini itu..semua yang nda best lah kejadian..mula2 tue mmg down habis lah me rasa..cam teda lagi kehidupan ni…tapi me cuba kasi betul sendiri tue utak and last2 dari naga bunting betukarlah pg naga beranak…kira oklah..the sooner i accept it,the better kan………
pas tue sia memberanikan diri menunjukkan diri ngan kawan2 baru yang sia kenal from FAF…mula2 sia jumpa si Freddy,Pirut,Mamai,Avrelle, durang semua ni best tapi sekejap jak me dapat berasmaradana ma durang ni abis me kelang kabut mau pulang…time jumpa ni merupakan perjumpaan pertama utk Kelab Anak Sulung Sabah..dan time ni jugalah 1st time me contact si Hazel@bebeh…dan kami bersms..dan bercalling2 dan jadi buduh..hehehehehe inda ba bebeh…pas tue barulah si bebeh bawa me keluar pg swingger & d sana me jumpa ramai lagi member2 faf yang best2 ni..suma pun kepala ronggeng ni…saya jumpa si Lemon,olumis,kupi,kiloy,meocatmeo,gidong,jasonjay,guni2,gindut,tomkurus,sky, ramai lagilah..sorrylah kalau ada yang me tdk termention di sini tapi apa2 pun suma yang me jumpa n kenal semua best…sampaikan mau tajam balik tanduk me yang laaaaaaaamaaaaaaaaaaaaa suda tumpul………tapi yang me heran durang ni..suka betul pg clubbing time2 kerja ba..tapi weekend teda 1 urg pun y contact me bawa jalan…terpaksa me ikut geng lain…. apapun me really enjoy dgn kamurang suma…..







